Classes

I just left my last class meeting for the summer.... grades will be in next week. The funny part was that I was the first one to share on the first day of class, yet ended up being the last person to give my presentation on the last day of class.

I wish I could say that I was excited to be done, but this was the first class I really learned anything in...It is by far my favorite one. And I am excited in my thoughts of continuing on once I have completed my license and masters to get a second endorsement in Reading and I could do it all online with the educator I just had....that would be so cool.

At the same time, I can't believe I am even entertaining the thought of it, especially at this point. I really liked this class and wish I didn't have the stress from the other class I had to finish assignments for at the same time, plus all the other things in life that are adding to the stress.

Anyways, I wish I could have just sat in one of the eight class meetings anytime since I began teaching, or working with kids for that matter. I think about how much that this class has given me as a teacher and then think about all the students I have had in the past....wow, just the information from one class meeting would have made a huge difference in my teaching. Glad I have something to go forward with.

With that said, I know this is gonna be a rough year at one of my schools....I just keep reminding myself that GOD opened up the way for me to be getting paid while getting my Masters and learning from both good and bad examples in the classroom with hands on experience. So I am thankful and will need to continue to Trust in HIM, and most important seek HIM, because I can't do it without GOD...it's gotta to be ALL about HIM.

Now it is time to go rest in HIS Arms by taking a well needed nap.

Ever have....

a horrible, terrible, no good, very bad day? I think Alexander did once in a book. That was my day in all aspects....Don't think it or life could seem any worse at the moment.

Trying my hardest to stay focused on GOD in all of it, as well as Trust HE has a plan and a purpose in all of it....but, I am spent and don't have anything left to offer in a given day.

I WANT and NEED GOD more than ever right now....I can't find that peace in HIS presence at the moment and I think I struggle a lot with that....much more than all the other issues of life.

Oh LORD, Please....I know you are right here, but I want so much more of YOU!

Life...

...just sucks right now, no doubt about that and not much more needs to be said. It is taking everything I have just to find something worth anything in a given day. Funny that I can write that and it is how I feel, yet at the same time....I see GOD in the littlest of things....like the rain, the sunset, the mountains. I see HIM in the things HE created, except not in me...yet, HE created me too.
Makes me think about the David Crowder song Everything Glorious:

The day is brighter here with You
The night is lighter than it's hue
Would lead me to believe
Which leads me to believe

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
What does that make me?

My eyes are small but they have seen
the beauty of enormous things
Which leads me to believe
there's light enough to see that

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory
You are glorious You are glorious
From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious
Which leads me to believe
why I can believe that

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

From glory to glory From glory to glory
You are glorious. You are glorious.
You are glorious. You are glorious.

You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
You make everything glorious
And I am Yours

I do KNOW that HE makes everything Glorious....just really seems blah right now

Is still

...reflecting on: "If you want Love, make a choice and act!!, but remembering that Love will ALWAYS require a sacrifice.

Update on KONG

I had to give him up today. I wish I could write that it was to his forever home, but I had to take me to a boarding shelter until they find another foster home or someone to adopt him.

His separation anxiety is just too much....I tried to leave him out in my condo yesterday, after getting him from the vet where he had 4 surgeries. He pushed his way out my window onto the roof again.

He is a great dog that I love a lot and am going to miss, but he needs a home where someone is home most of the time and has at least one other dog. He just needs constant companionship. Funny, that is why I have to give him up, because I decided to foster so I would have some companionship.

Just a reminder that GOD didn't wire us to journey though this life alone. I pray Kong finds a loving home and family REAL soon. All I know is that he touched my heart and reminded me of how deep my heart is and how capable it is of loving others, and loving them deeply.