Yep, just Praising GOD today.... so glad HE is a jealous GOD and obviously wants me ALL to HIMSELF...
Feeling very Loved and Expectant to see all that HE has in store.... something is brewing and as soon as I can put myself to the side, maybe HE can really do what it is HE wants to do....
"Waiting with Hope"
My soul, wait silently for God alone, For my expectation is from Him. ~Psalm 62:5 (NKJ)
Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. ~Psalm 62:5 (NLT)
My soul,wait in silence for God only, For my hope is from Him. ~Psalm 62:5 (NASB)
Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him. ~Psalm 62:5 (NIV)
Friday, July 09, 2010
Wednesday, July 07, 2010
At the moment....
.... life really sucks! I set out to the unknown, looking high above and waiting expectantly for the Lord.... I just needed to get away... have an adventure. See, hear, feel God in a way I haven't in a while. I wanted to live, laugh, and love again and not hurt so darn much. I REALLY didn't have any expectations (some hopes).... I wanted to relax and enjoy somewhere different.... and let GOD be GOD in whatever.... not knowing if I'd stay a week or a month. Just being a little hopeful, that spending some time with someone who puts a smile on my face would be a part of it, to increase a friendship. Whether they were a part or not... I was gonna have an adventure and take every opportunity to experience GOD as if it was the first time! But, it seems my expectations or intentions have been misinterpreted by someone and I don't know if I have the strength or desire to continue this journey even if I feel I'm suppose to be here, at the moment I want to leave!
GOD truly is ALL I need and ALL I got!! So it even sucks to be struggling with Him, hearing something about Wyoming, but I just don't think I have it in me to do this time.... I want to remain faithful to HIM and Trust HIM, but again I don't know if my heart can do this. Yet, HE Knows me and Knows my heart.... so I gotta Trust, Be Still, and Wait on HIM!!
There's got to be something missing for the peace that can only be found through Him seems to be eluding me.Whatever it is or has been since being in Korea,well it is time for it to go, leave... release it's hold!! I want to find that Peace again!!
Lord, PLEASE.... take me there no matter how deep so that You may overcome and be Glorified like No other time before in my life.... Let this chapter end so different than it seems to be leading to. Give me a clear direction... I wanna go home!
Lord help me, I NEED You so desperately. I need a physical hug so badly from You!!!!
* Before going to bed, after crying on the phone for an hour with a friend, I decided that the journey was too painful for my heart and I was going to leave Wyoming the next morning....
Interesting for me is after I wrote this last night I read these two things in Our Daily Bread:
We make gods out of wealth and relationships because we don't want to have to put all our trust in God. ~Julie Ackerman Link
Contentment is realizing that God has already given me all I need.
Also, read this in God Calling:
PAINFUL PREPARATION
Help and Peace and Joy are here. Your courage will be rewarded. Painful as this time is you will both one day see the reason of it, and see too that it was not cruel testing, but tender preparation for the wonderful lifework you are both to do. Try to realize that your own prayers are being most wonderfully answered. Answered in a way that seems painful to you, but that just now is the only way. Success in the temporal world would not satisfy you. Great success, in both temporal and spiritual worlds, awaits you. I know you will see this had to be.
** More of God was waking up this morning to an email that opened the door for me to stay at least another week longer in Wyoming, by working at Our Camp, in Story, Wyoming. And then I read this for today in God Calling:
MY SECRET
You are being guided but remember that I said "I will guide thee with mine eye." And My Eye is My set purpose- My Will. To guide with My Will is to bring all your desires into oneness with My Will, My desires. To make My Will your only will. Then My Will guides you.
Ok, I'm Trusting You, GOD..... You obviously don't want me to leave.... my will is Your Will.... guide me.... I'm trusting and waiting with hope.... I'm content and at peace that I truly am exactly where you want me to be, no matter how painful it is in my heart...
GOD truly is ALL I need and ALL I got!! So it even sucks to be struggling with Him, hearing something about Wyoming, but I just don't think I have it in me to do this time.... I want to remain faithful to HIM and Trust HIM, but again I don't know if my heart can do this. Yet, HE Knows me and Knows my heart.... so I gotta Trust, Be Still, and Wait on HIM!!
There's got to be something missing for the peace that can only be found through Him seems to be eluding me.Whatever it is or has been since being in Korea,well it is time for it to go, leave... release it's hold!! I want to find that Peace again!!
Lord, PLEASE.... take me there no matter how deep so that You may overcome and be Glorified like No other time before in my life.... Let this chapter end so different than it seems to be leading to. Give me a clear direction... I wanna go home!
Lord help me, I NEED You so desperately. I need a physical hug so badly from You!!!!
* Before going to bed, after crying on the phone for an hour with a friend, I decided that the journey was too painful for my heart and I was going to leave Wyoming the next morning....
Interesting for me is after I wrote this last night I read these two things in Our Daily Bread:
We make gods out of wealth and relationships because we don't want to have to put all our trust in God. ~Julie Ackerman Link
Contentment is realizing that God has already given me all I need.
Also, read this in God Calling:
PAINFUL PREPARATION
Help and Peace and Joy are here. Your courage will be rewarded. Painful as this time is you will both one day see the reason of it, and see too that it was not cruel testing, but tender preparation for the wonderful lifework you are both to do. Try to realize that your own prayers are being most wonderfully answered. Answered in a way that seems painful to you, but that just now is the only way. Success in the temporal world would not satisfy you. Great success, in both temporal and spiritual worlds, awaits you. I know you will see this had to be.
** More of God was waking up this morning to an email that opened the door for me to stay at least another week longer in Wyoming, by working at Our Camp, in Story, Wyoming. And then I read this for today in God Calling:
MY SECRET
You are being guided but remember that I said "I will guide thee with mine eye." And My Eye is My set purpose- My Will. To guide with My Will is to bring all your desires into oneness with My Will, My desires. To make My Will your only will. Then My Will guides you.
Ok, I'm Trusting You, GOD..... You obviously don't want me to leave.... my will is Your Will.... guide me.... I'm trusting and waiting with hope.... I'm content and at peace that I truly am exactly where you want me to be, no matter how painful it is in my heart...
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