Anxiety

I have been soooo anxious the past couple of days about starting classes myself. I graduated from college in December of 1993, so it has been almost 15 years ago. I don't think that I have a fear of failing, but maybe one of succeeding. Having my dreams REALLY come true. GOD has however, been speaking all week to my anxiety about starting classes myself and starting teaching in a new field the end of this month. I have been crying out to HIM and praying nonstop. Here are some of the things in "God Calling" that GOD has been using to give me the Peace I know I need. I KNOW, but I still can't shake the anxiety.

January 7, The Secret Pearl

Look upon us with Thy favor; O Lord, while we behold "the land that is very far off" and yet so near to the seeing eye and the listening ear.

Wait. Wonders are unfolding. Tremble with awe. No man can stand upon the threshold of Eternity unshaken.... Do not be too ready to do, just be. I said, "Be ye therefore, perfect" not "do" perfect things. Try and grasp this....

January 8, Love Bangs the Door

Life with Me is not immunity from difficulties, but peace in difficulties. My guidance is often by shut doors. Love bangs as well as opens. Joy is the result of faithful trusting acceptance of My Will, when it seems not joyous....

January 9, No Strain

Be calm, no matter what may befall you. Rest in Me. Be patient, and let patience have her perfect work. Never think things overwhelming. How can you be overwhelmed when I am with you? Do not feel the strain of life. There is no strain for My children. Do you not see I am Master Instrument maker? Have I not fashioned each part? Do I not know just what it can bear without a strain? Would I, the Maker of so delicate an instrument, ask of it anything that could destroy or strain? No! The strain is only when you are serving another master, the world, fame, the good opinion of men- or carrying two days' burden on the one day. Remember that it must not be.

Wow, did I really need to hear those words. Especially the ones from yesterday. GOD is the one that has open these doors and I know it is HIM who has called me for a long time now to do this very thing. I have continued to run out of fear. I don't need to be overwhelmed. HE will take care of it all, I just need to REST in HIM. PRAISE JESUS! for HIS perfect timing. I had just been praying to HIM about helping me with my anxiety about starting class and then I went and read that. I wish I could say after reading that that my anxiousness went away, but it did lessen for a bit. I just can't shake the feelings, but at least I KNOW that GOD won't ask anything of me that will destroy. It may seem hard, but it won't destroy.

THANKS, GOD for loving me enough to speak directly to my heart when I need so desperately to hear it. "Do not be anxious about anything, but by prayer and....."