Numbers and Alive...

I love feeling alive again... ALMOST the me I miss again.... said good-bye to my counselor the other day too...But loving the numbers I've been hearing lately!!

Loved getting the doctor's report, it seems that my good cholesterol is really good. Doctor said she hadn't read numbers as good as mine for my age!! Now that I am "40" I've had to get some things checked... don't you love that certain things are suppose to come with age? I'm just glad my "numbers" are so good!! And that I don't look "40" at all... matter of fact people tend to believe I'm lying and look like I'm still in my "20's"... makes me smile... good genes and thanking GOD!!

I went to change my insurance for my car and condo... fun to have her call the agent over to look at my credit score, she said she had never seen such a high score. This is definitely a Praise Jesus... I've been working on that for some time now.... though I am in debt with a school loan again, love that I've gotten myself in a really good place, thanks to some help from friends and lots of prayer to GOD. Plus, it helps to save me money on insurance at the moment... as well as, not gonna be driving that car so much once I move to Cedaredge... woo hoo!! Again, good "numbers"

I was reminded today when I heard the song: "I Still Miss You" by Keith Anderson how much I do miss special people in my life. A few in particular to say the least..... but, it brought me to the realization of feeling Alive again.... feeling GOD speak and move in amazing ways... at moments it seems hard to trust, but then I'm reminded too, that HE has always provided for what I have needed... and most recently I put 3 WANTS out there... would love for those wants to be a part of HIS plan and had fun in the car speaking my mind and asking for them... at this point HE has blessed me with 2 of those 3... wonder what will come of the third? Though the third want has come by HIS voice I hear, so know they are GOD-inspired.... but, have been afraid to trust myself in them (thanks to past history)... I put the request out there, and Know I Need to and Will Trust HIM... so in time we will see what comes of it.


In thinking of the lyrics from the above mentioned song:
I never knew til you were gone
how many pages you were on
it never ends I keep turning
and line after line and you are there again
I don't know how to let you go
you are so deep down in my soul
I feel helpless so hopeless
its a door that never closes
no I don't know how to do this

I've talked to friends
I've talked to myself
I've talked to God
I prayed liked hell but I still miss you
I tried sober I tried drinking
I've been strong and I've been weak
and I still miss you
I've done everything
move on like I'm supposed to
I'd give anything for one more minute with you
I still miss you yeah

In reflection is reminds me how much I miss those friends in my life... how much I miss having a group to hang out with, to experience life with, after all LIFE IS FOR SHARING... but am thankful for friends on facebook that GOD has allowed me to connect with.... Now looking forward to putting down new roots and finding a community to serve and be a part of... watch out Cedaredge, here comes Kimie Kay!!