Keep thinking about the Refiner email I sent out to encourage others the other day.... why is it every time you start to draw closer to the Lord and do some work for Him, the enemy attacks even harder?
I don't have the strength to continue to fight right now.... this is fall break for me. I'm suppose to be relaxing and resting in God's arms and finishing up homework that will get me my initial teaching license.
However, in the process of inquiring about getting paid for my graduate credit hours, I receive a letter today that says since they don't have a valid teaching license on hand, though my TTE is in process, they say I WON'T get paid!
I know that it will all work out, on the phone the other day they said I was fine. I've just killed myself the past two years, ruined a relationship, moved from what I've called home for so long... to only get attacked more and more... I have no strength left.
I know, absolutely know that it is all gonna work out... it always does, but I'd be lying if I didn't be honest and say that I feel more alone than I ever have and need prayers for strength.
Yes!!!! My GOD is good, so very very good and HE loves me so much.... I know HIS heart is breaking as the flood of tears flow down my cheek right now. In the end it will all work out and I'll be fine... I DO KNOW THIS!!!!
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