Only Hope...

Tonight I went to the Feast of Praise here in Buffalo, Wyoming. One of the songs that I heard just really touched my heart with all that has been on my heart and mind lately. Along with all that GOD has and continues to do in my life this year.... what a journey it has been and continues to be.

That song that hit my heart in more than one way was "Only Hope"

The lyrics are:
There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold.
But you sing to me over and over and over again.

So, I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I know now, you're my only hope.

I give you my destiny.
I'm giving you all of me.
I want your symphony, singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back.

So I lay my head back down.
And I lift my hands and pray
To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours
I pray, to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope.


Sometimes I feel I am being pretty vague with my writing, there is so so much going on in my heart this year, but I guess the little details don't matter as much as the way and words GOD keeps speaking and putting into my life. IF only you could have heard my different conversations with GOD this weekend. My prayers, all that is in my heart, all that has been going on.... there is just so much. And again, as I was crying out and being still with HIM... well, I opened up a book and read these words.... it continues to be a theme in my life this year... Oh how I wish I could have written or recorded every little thing.... All I know is that GOD is awesome and the only thing that really truly matters in my life is HIS LOVE in it, through it, with it, etc.... My only desire is to Love HIM and live my life for HIM....

Here is how HE continues to put "Be still, and Know" and "Waiting with Hope" in my heart and on my mind... :

"Streams in the Desert"
November 20

Blessed is the one who waits. (Daniel 12:12)

Waiting may seem like an easy thing to do, but it is a discipline that a Christian soldier does not learn without years of training. Marching and drills are much easier for God's warriors than standing still.

There are times of indecision and confusion, when even the most willing person, who eagerly desires to serve the Lord, does not know what direction to take. So what should you do when you find yourself in this situation? Should you allow yourself to be overcome with despair? Should you turn back in cowardice or in fear or rush ahead in ignorance?

No, you should simply wait- but WAIT IN PRAYER. Call upon God and plead your case before Him, telling Him of your difficulty and reminding Him of His promise to help.

WAIT IN FAITH. Express your unwavering confidence in Him. And believe that even if He keeps you waiting until midnight, He will come at the right time to fulfill His vision for you.

WAIT IN QUIET PATIENCE. Never complain about what you believe to be the cause of your problems, as the children of Israel did against Moses. Accept your situation exactly as it is and then simply place it with your whole heart into the hand of your covenant God. And while removing any self-will, say to Him, "Lord,'Not my will, but yours be done'(Luke 22:42). I do not know what to do, and I am in great need. But I will wait until You divide the flood before me or drive back my enemies. I will wait even if You keep me here many days, for my heart is fixed on You alone, dear Lord. And my spirit will wait for You with full confidence that You will still be my joy and my salvation, 'for you have been my refuge, [and] a strong tower against the foe'(Psalm 61:3). ~from Morning by Morning

Wait, patiently wait,
God never is late;
Your budding plans are in Your Father's holding,
And only wait His grand divine unfolding.
Then wait, wait,
Patiently wait.

Trust, hopefully trust,
That God will adjust
Your tangled life; and from its dark concealings,
Will bring His will, in all its bright revealings.
Then trust, trust,
Hopefully trust.

Rest, peacefully rest
On your Savior's breast;
Breathe in His ear your sacred high ambition,
And He will bring it forth in blest fruition.
Then rest, rest,
Peacefully rest!


This all comes as perfect timing with me just finishing the Daniel Fast for the past 21 days.... GOD keeps drawing me closer and closer to HIM. I'm so Thankful for ALL that 2010 has brought about in my life.... All I know is this weekend I've been reflecting on ALL that I have to be thankful for this year and I've been thinking about the one thing I miss, that someone I miss so much.... someone who other than GOD really has played a huge part in me getting to where I am at at the moment.... So many words I could voice and so many things I could say, BUT, it all really just comes down to saying PRAISE JESUS!!!!! I'm falling more and more in love with you ever day.... I can't explain the Peace I have, I can't express the Joy I have.... I long for something and miss someone so much, but I'm ok.... I'm Trusting GOD in a way I never have before.... I'm Being Still, and Knowing..... I'm Waiting in Prayer, Faith, and Quiet Patience while Waiting with Hope in HIM.....

I'm in a place I've never been before with HIM and it feels GREAT!!!!!!

HE is my only Hope.....