I got it....

Yep, it came to me like a lighting bolt and I got it today. I understand what I was feeling yesterday and why it was such a rough day. It was funny to get some of your responses to what you thought may be going on with me knowing things from my past. It was just a reminder that I have really changed and that GOD is very much the center of my life and my guide. So thank you for the smile and the reminder of how GOD does change us from the inside.

I know that I was feeling alone yesterday because as I reflect on the life I had here in Colorado before I left for Korea I recall that I worked two jobs and was always on the go. If I wasn't working, I was out doing something with a family or friends, or even on a date. Then I had about 10 months where I had lots of time alone with GOD, which at that stage of my journey is exactly what I needed.

I guess in returning home, I thought things would be like they were before I left. But, they are not. Life has gone on, you all have changed and yet, so have I.

I realized that when I first got back to the States I was busy every day watching four awesome kids that I live with right now. Plus, I was recovering from jet lag and, well, ten months of whatever it was. Then I went home to Michigan for about two weeks where I was continually on the go visiting friends and family. Plus, my first week back to Colorado after that trip was filled every minute. Then this past weekend that had been planned with Allyson since probably February finally came to be and was awesome.

Yet, yesterday arrived and well, I don't have a car yet and I have a week with absolutely nothing planned. No where to go, nothing to do, and truthfully not much to look forward to. Me, who has always been on the go and loves to be busy (yet I do like my quiet time), is ready to "FLY", so to speak. I want to go hiking and camping. I want to see a movie and watch a baseball game (just to get ready for Football season of course). I want to go out on a date, spent time with friends talking and hanging out...................,but it all hit me yesterday............I know life won't be the same as before I left, but I just can't sit still when there is soooo much living out there to do. When there are so many opportunities to seize. I don't want to start all over and find new things to do and new people to do them with.............but I guess I may just have to.

I forced myself to go to Bible Study last night and I am glad I did. Scott, I may have to just join you all tomorrow night for sushi too. I loved going to Tanya's Birthday party, as well as small group on Friday. Lori, I look forward to getting together and meeting your precious new bundle of joy soon as well. Adrienne, I also, so look forward to finally meeting such a wonderful authentic, inspirational women of GOD. Raych, it was awesome to have lunch and share with you.........though, we do need to finish where we left off. Kent, thanks for lunch today, you always make me smile. David, I look forward to seeing you and letting things unfold. I can't even begin to express the thanks I have for the family I live with.......... though, I do know that they know how much they mean to me. I don't know what I would do with out them.

I could go on and on.........I just know there is so much still to do and soooo many of you whom I still need to hug your necks. And well, I can't sit still for too long. I loved my time alone with GOD over the past almost year in Korea, but it is time to Seize different and more moments, and to add to a previous blog, use my wings to Fly.

Living the Message for today says: Poetry is essential....because poetry is original speech. The word is creative: it brings into being what was not there before- perception, relationship, belief. Out of the silent abyss a sound is formed: people hear what was not heard before and are changed by the sound from loneliness into love. Out of the blank abyss a picture is formed by means of metaphor: people see what they did not see before and are changed by the image from anonymity into love. Words create. GOD's word creates; our words can participate in the creation.

I just wanted to share that because it hit my heart as I was having thoughts about writing but wanted to be with GOD before I did write my thoughts about yesterday. The parts about change and participating in creation just really hit me. I want my heart to continuously be changing for the better and towards GOD, and I REALLY want to participate in HIS creation.

And Yes, HE spoke through God Calling as well: Our LORD, guide us. Show us Thy Will and Way in Everything. Keep close to Me and you shall know the Way because, as I said to My disciples, I am the Way. That is the solution to all Earth's problems. Keep close, very close to Me. Think, act, and live in My Presence. How dare any foe touch you, protected by Me! That is the secret of all Power, all Peace, all Purity, all influence, the keeping very near to Me. Abide in Me. Live in My Presence. Rejoice in My Love. Thank and Praise all the time. Wonders are unfolding.

Also, thank you Miss Shirley for sharing this devotion with me today: Text: “Yet this is what the Sovereign Lord says: ‘It will not take place, it will not happen” (Isaiah 7.7)
Thought of the day: To put this verse in context, the Lord made a statement & a promise. He made a statement that He knew the plans of godless people to attack the Jews. There is something soothing in knowing that God is aware of my circumstances. In all my years of praying, I have never informed God of anything. He not only knows about my circumstances, His knowledge of my circumstances is greater than mine. There is also something encouraging knowing that God is maintaining a level of control over my circumstances. The promise in Isaiah 7.7 was that God would not allow the plans of the wicked to succeed. You can rest assured that God is keeping a watchful eye on you & yours. He goes about our day with a quiet confidence that everything is going to be OK. He’s not stressed out. He’s not searching for answers. He knows everything about you & is working on your behalf. Trust Him.

How can I end this other than just raising my hands and yelling, in honor of my class in Korea: "Praise the LORD. Give thanks to the LORD, for HE is good. HIS love endures forever."

PRAISE JESUS!!