Prayer

Wednesday I woke up in a bad mood. This was strange since I had times of fellowship both Monday and Tuesday nights. My mood did not end with my wake up. One thing after another went wrong and with my lack of connection with people lately, it seemed even harder. I was fighting hard to change my mood, but my class made it even worse.

After morning break outside I told my class to go in to our room. Three of the four chose to act like they were in third grade and went to their old room and with their old teacher. However, the one who doesn't even let me breathe (she is always by my side and Never with the rest of the class-I am struggling with this) was with me.

I didn't bother to go find the others for I knew where they were at, so I began doing our Language/English lesson. The others came in and began interrupting. I took the points away that they had earned and asked where they had been. They answered and then I had asked if they had permission to go. I then proceeded to say that I knew they loved their teacher, Mrs. Nickel, from last year. Heck, I do too. However, I was now their teacher and they were in 4th grade not 3rd grade any more. I told them I was hurt and it was time that we became the 4th grade class at CCS.

The day didn’t get much better and I haven’t really heard from anyone in a while. Tae Kwon Do was good though because I was able to let a lot of my emotions out.

I reminded myself how important prayer was and I knew I needed to pray. Pray for my class and then for others. I was being pretty selfish and needed to pray for others.

I woke up Thursday to read in “God Calling” by AJ Russell:

August 31 PRAY AND DENY
“How be it this kind goeth no out but by prayer and fasting” Matthew 17:21

You must live a life of communion and prayer if you are to save others.
Take My Words as a command to you. “By prayer and fasting.”
Pray and deny yourself, and you will be used marvelously to save and help others.

Then at staff devotions, Mr. Nickel shared from Philippians 4:4-9. These two parts (from verses 6 and 9) really hit my heart: “….in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God…..Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me –put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.”

God then allowed many things that need to be prayed for to come into my day.

For instance;

-Noah and his family, you can read about them at http://noahsteven.blogspot.com
-Lisa, friend from high school, had breast cancer a couple of years ago. Went into remission, but now has a tumor on her brain and was given about a week to live. She has a young son.
-Noi, a friend of a friend, in Thailand whom also was given only a few months to live.
-Lloyd, a friend of a fellow teacher, the doctors don’t know what is wrong so they are making him leave Korea and sending him back to Canada.
-Another friend who is raising children alone now and who’s ex-husband is making it very difficult.

I could go on and on, but it all just made me realize that I need to pray and not think about my little struggle with my class (which by the way, they came together as a class on Thursday thanks to prayer and it was even better Friday.) or to think about feeling alone and not communicating with others for so long.

I need to communicate with God, “And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:7