Cookies Speak

Over the past few days I have heard GOD speaking in numerous ways with numerous things that are on my mind and heart, and it began with fortune cookies... yet, ends with the most perfect prayer for today!

On Thursday night after my home check visit for adopting Murray I ordered Chinese. There is just so much going on in my life at the moment with moving to Cedaredge and getting Murray... well, I've been praying a lot and about a lot of things. And found it interesting that as I was talking with GOD I opened up two fortune cookies and they said:

YOU WILL BE CALLED UPON TO CELEBRATE SOME GOOD NEWS (funny thing was the next day I found out I was approved to get Murray) and...

YOUR PRESENT PLANS ARE GOING TO SUCCEED (hmmm... felt the whole move thing was in this one)....

Love hearing GOD speak, especially when they come through unexpected things that are without doubt from HIM.

I had decided to sign up for eHarmony one more time. So I paid for a months membership... it was two weeks before my birthday and would be ending about two weeks after. I figured that the last two men I met through there whom I got to know were exactly what I have been looking for in a future partner... and well, they both were introduced to me through eHarmony, so why not try again. However, I had decided if nothing came of it I was gonna close my account completely for good this time. After all I have been on it since 2002 and have had well over 400 matches... and I'm still single.

Anyway, back to GOD speaking. Thursday and Friday I had really been praying about whether I should really close it or not... after all maybe a third great match would come along (figured Third Times a Charm, or either Three Strikes and your Out), but as I was praying that night the entry in "every women, every day", began with Internet relationships can be misleading.....and ended with In real relationships with real people, you see the whole package- the good, the bad, and the ugly.

I felt like it was my confirmation to close it for good. Though I am grateful that GOD used eHarmony to be the introduction to some pretty amazing men.... obviously it wasn't the tool for me... but, I did always look at it as a means to meet people I would have otherwise NEVER met. I am truly thankful and don't believe it was an accident that I met who I did. GOD used each and every one... and I have gained some pretty awesome guy friends from the time on it.... It's just finally time to be done!!

Then on Saturday, I was questioning GOD if I was really hearing HIM again. If the thoughts I was having in so many things were from HIM. I wanted so badly to Trust, but at times my flesh keeps getting in the way. I don't even know if I have truly reflected upon the things that GOD has been giving me and showing me lately... but, some of them have made me question my own heart and mind about hearing HIM.... and then GOD CALLING by AJ Russell answered those questions:

Titled: GOD-INSPIRED
You have entered now upon a mountain climb.... Looking to Me all your thoughts are God-inspired. Act on them and you will be led on. They are not your own impulses but the movement of My Spirit and, obeyed, will bring the answer to your prayers. Love and Trust...

Wow, HE is speaking again in my life loud and clear and I just need to Love and Trust. I can't wait to share this all with my counselor....

But, today topped it all off with this prayer entry in "every women, every day"

Lord, I don't understand why waiting is such an impossible thing for me. Time appears to plow ahead, and the changes I long for seem like distant dreams, whispers of possibility, but far from present reality. Help me understand that in the waiting I am living my questions one day at a time. In living the questions, I can be assured of learning much more about Your nature than instant answers or change will offer me. Please give me patience and faith. Like the rolling of the unending tide, Father, I pray that You will continue to come upon me, restoring my faith and granting me greater patience for the journey.